facebook will be blood

I am one of those who are hating the new timeline. But I believe the idea behind it is an effort by the smart guy Zuckerberg to lock us to facebook.

Think about the history of our life locked and preserved along with it our facebook account.Every updates of tears, breakup, journey, joy and happiness.

And imagine this, parents from our generation create an account for themselves but use it to update about their babies instead. Every first word, every fall, every baby language, best of all every pictures  (oh thank goodness facebook is after our baby times. Imagine your friends looking at your weird teen pictures, haha. No shit)

 Like it or not, your life is there. Written posted viewed by many. 

replacing boyfriend?

Last week my boss came to me asking me to follow him to nst for an interview. Moment he told me I knew that was my chance to escape work. :D so I said yes. So the interview was about the millenials generation which are those who were born in the year 1982 to 2006. The word describes our generation as technology dependent and brand conscious. As the agency im working with had done a few researches on millenials where more than 10000 youth were involved.

So the findings of the Malaysian millenials were suprising to me! As they said we are :

-          Most of us have 754 friends on facebook where we have not met 463 of them in person and only interact with 50 people regularly and only meet up with half of them regularly.  (ramai sgt I don’t think im that famous to have 460 friends who I haven’t met on fb. Gambar fb tak cukup hot kot?)

-          We are also too internet dependent (errr errr)

-          We are more brand conscious.  (for most maybe, personally brg pasar malam 0so I don’t mind as long as the quality is satisfying)

Ok so, that’s Is not really the point. my concern is my undying love and relationship with gadgets! So today while I curi tulang I have been calculating the hours that I spent with my gadget daily. Sooooooooooooo here are the numbers,

Bangun pagi 10 minutes to check on emails and twitter etc on blackberry

1hour drive to work 20 minutes on twitter or tab for news (yes don’t twit n drive people!)

Office 8-10hours of laptop. Curi tulang oso guna laptop ma

At home 3 hours for movies or internet stuff.

So in total I spend 11-13 hours daily with my gadgets!! that is almost half of a day man. Minus 6 hours of sleep and the others for, phone conversation, makan, naik tangga, tunggu lift kat rumah n office, special time dalam toilet and etc.

 maybe soon millenials will stop going on dates and date on skype instead. -no no i wont replace my bf.kot. hihi

THIS IS CURRAZYYY, I need a Lifestyle makeover ASAP!

Anti-Aging Required!

 Today I have realized that my ‘supported by parents’, ‘car paid for’ and ‘mc anytime days’ is about to be over. As of in 2 months I will have to strive for the best job I could find to survive and support myself to live. After 5 years of independent learning where I seek almost no help from parents and survived the dreadful years of degree and Melaka now as I look back I miss it. I had my nakal days and I had my I rather sleep than attend classes days.

How fun it was to be free, to take no time to think about what ur going to do and just do it. In a few months I’ll be working and money from abah will stop coming in and I’ll have to start executing my plan of the future that I have been dreaming to have. 

Career wise I think I know the right thing to do but I am still sceptical of my choices. Ever since In school with guidance, abah gave me the freedom to choose what I want to do in life. Even with all of that practice, I am still confused most of the time. Well I know Im not the only one.

But despite all of this confusion of what im going to do, I do know what I wont do for sure.

  1. I will not apply for any credit card (or at least not with my own name. haha). Like most of my friends I can be a crazy shopaholic. Regardless of all of the persuasion of the people surround me I will not risk my pay for the crazy interest they will charge me later. I will be wise and Look in the mirror and measure my size. Spend for what I could afford.
  2. I will stay away from any loan with interest. I have been lucky to have been provided with all the necessities in life and I will make full use of it. I will start paying off for my car on my own soon and I will keep the car until it falls apart. (unless if I turn into an instant millionaire and could afford to pay for a new ‘Jag’ cash, that will be a different case lah) so while I know I could not pay anything cash, I promise I will not get myself into trouble and avoid all kind of loans. That the banks are seducing us to take.  
  3. I pledge I will not get myself too comfortable with what I do. As I went for an interview a month ago, the interviewer told me that “if ur comfortable with your job that you aint lerning”. With that I have made a plan, a few plans actually. Of the things I am going to do apart from my stable job.
  4. I really hope I will not be the kind of daughter who will forget all the hard work my parents had put together to raise me despite of being separated.  And those whimsical sometime annoying little sisters and brothers will get all the attention they need from their big sister especially when they wish I wont. Beware little monkeys, ur sister is always on the hunt.  
  5. I wont I wont I wont, I couldn’t think of anything else. Hihihihi

That is it. That is all I could think of for now, for now im just going to experience life the way a 20 year old should (hehehe, I can be a bit indenial at times) and love every piece of it with the people I love. All I can say is good luck Me for your future! Yeeeheee :D

ever look back and wonder the what ifs?

2011

i know 2011 have passed 24 days ago. but i still feel like talking about it. not because i wanna reminisce what i had in the past but i just simply want to remind myself how lucky i am with what i have in the present. 

2011 was tough, not as tough as the year before that but it definitely wasnt the easiest. however i have found what i want. 

i started of the year being in a relationship and i ended my year being in a new one. no im not a slut. no im not a gold digger or any of that sort. and no i didnt enjoy leaving nor did i enjoy ending a relationship/friendship with someone. 

the relationship in the beginning of the year. it was good and stable. but truth is we both knew something was wrong but we just couldnt pointed it out. he, was my bestfriend. the first and the last person i’ll talk to everyday. the person i shared all my hardship with. the person who were willing to spend days and night with me in the hospital. the person who carried me when i fall, who fed me when i could not, who accepted me at my worse. he was everything to me. 

but each day looking in to his eyes. i knew he wasnt happy. or at least by what i had to put him through i knew i wasnt.. he had so much potential in his life but i felt like i was putting him down. i was the boundaries to so much more great things that he could do. and i know its not my place to control his life. but i thought i was doing the right thing. and by the time i realize i was wrong. things were already too ugly to be fixed. i was too messed up to change. hence.i made the hardest and most heartbreaking decision, to leave. as i know he will be better without me and our situation was too complicated and hard for us to bare. 

things were okay at first. and after a few months hatred took control and changed us from friends to enemies. i dont blame him. here’s why:

while i was being indecisive on what i should do with my life an old friend of 5 years was there for me through it all. and after awhile i realized that there was something about him that i missed 5 years ago or maybe chose to ignore, another one of my idiotic decision.yes.

but he was special. and after 5 years he still is. i knew i could not let him go this time. they might say its impossible to fall in love again too quickly. i dont believe its true. 

they describe love with all the extremes. its blind. its crazy. its this and its that. but never have i heard it has an expiry date nor an appropriate time or length or period?

this old friend had been there for me for 5 years. maybe we didnt talk as much but he was there for me when i needed him and best of all. he believed in me. he was the positive force that i needed in my life. and so i accepted him in my life

im not proud of that. but as the cliche says ‘the heart wants what the heart wants’ so i ignored the eyes and the judgement. and i accepted him into my life. and now i have people asking details about it. and my ex bestfriend/boyfriend hates me. well i dont blame him. but now i am grateful with what i have. to still have such a great guy and to be surrounded by awesome people. i am blessed 

as for him, i hope he’s happy now. i hope this 2012 will bring him all the joy and the happiness that a good guy like him deserve. 

so there goes 2011. the year filled with drama. but along the year i have gained good friends and experience. and i am grateful for that. because they are here for me to keep. hoping that this year, will be better for me and everyone else around me :)

NIGHTNIGHT by DEDDY